Why is it still so painful even though I have people who are concerned about me?

I've finally crossed one of my limits.. eating insects! My sch's Thai Chef brought fried insects back from Thailand and I tried some.. a worm and grasshopper.. It's tasted crispy and salty.. not much of flavoring.. Hahaha...

I'm on my way to Bangkok! :) (I hope I am really going there....)

Darling bought 20 new fishes and the tank is placed just right beside my bed.. hehe.. they are so pretty.. There's pink, green, and purple ones.. so cute! Will upload photos in facebook soon!

Just some random updates about my life in school. Learnt how to disect a chicken and sharpen ing of my knife. Will start proper knife cutting skills soon!

Arhz.. it's sucks to go back to school on  Saturday, but I think I should really get used to it soon, becoz I might be working on Saturdays and Sundays soon! Oh well.. Slept at about 10 plus last night and just woke up. The feeling is good!

Just finished my practical examination and started class on Friday. Thought will be going into kitchen but heard that the chef got his timetable mixed up and he taught us smthing else instead. I hope the real action starts on Monday! I heard that we might not be cooking much for these 3 mths (so dun bug me to cook for u guys first pls!).. It's more about mise-en-place and knife skills.. I really want to chop, slice, minced etc professionally. Hahah.. This is the day I've been waiting for! But I know I need lots of practice..

Oh, some other stuff to tok about. I went to Orchard ION a few days ago.. Me being a foodie, I dun really care how many shopping malls are there. Becoz the first section I go is the basement, where all the food outlets are located. I tried a few stuff and had a few conclusions. R-burger sucks, tako pachi was okay only (The ones I had in Japan are way better!), the Taiwan beef noodles so-so, Thai desserts were FANTASTIC (Especially the coconut with chesnut), Tokyo Crepe Girl was EXCELLENT! I would like to elaborate more about the Tokyo Crepe Girl. At first, I was hesitant to buy anything from that stall, becoz there isn't anyone buying any crepes.. But I was amazed by the chef's profile (Worked in Gordon Ramsey's Holding's before, Worked in Tokyo Conrad, won a gold medal in smthing). He's a Japanese anyway.. So I decided to try Apple and Orange Crepe. I was in awe.. It tasted sooooooooooooooooooooo gooooooddddd that my day brightened up instantly (it's really part of their motto!) And, apple and orange crepe is not even the best seller! Although it's a lil pricy, I still think it's worth every single cent. U guys have to understand that I dun really eat desserts and I seldom crave for them. And, I have really high expectations for desserts and I seldom praise about them. Even Canele Patisserie (supposingly sell really good and expensive cakes).. I only find it so-so. I almost wanted to go for a second round after my first serving.. but I guess I'm too embarrassed to go back.. hahahahah..

And I simply love the Market Place at ION~ It was really an eye opener for me. Many interesting fruits and vege.. good wine.. and most imptly, Valrhona outlet is coming soon! I'm so definitely gonna go there!

Can u imagine a small bottle of extra virgin olive oil costs 60 bucks? =.= 

It's over. The ceremony and the ball. The day I've always been waiting for is over. I feel sad.. becoz I miss NTU. I am actually proud to be a NTU student. I love friends I've made and my professors. The thought of not seeing them so often just make my heart aches.

I know this new path I'm choosing is gonna be a hard one.

I hope I can do it... I hope.

I am sick. I can't rmb when was the last time I fell sick. Guess the lack of water, proper food, exercise and sleep (not forgetting stress!) brings down my immunity.

Class is stressful and tiring every single day. I need to get used to failure. I need to keep improving. And everytime I only had a day to do it.

But, I dunnoe why, despite all these, I am always looking forward to school.

I love most of my classmates. They are fun and I feel comfortable being with them. They are encouraging, and most of them are helpful and nice. I love toking to them, because it's all about food food food.

Is this my world? My future?

I just hope I can be a decent chef.

It's already the week 2.. and I felt like I've gone thru a mth's course! I've learnt quite alot from the academy. Theory aside.. we were taught how to fold 12 different napkin foldings, using service gear (we used eggs for practice!), and knowing the right way to serve in a fine dining restaurant. So many things to rmb! I know that wine service will come next week and this Thursday I'm gonna learn how to make a mocktail! Quite excited for it.. but the only downside for this program is that I always feel very tired after my class.. and and and... I really sucked at hands-on stuff.. not that I totally can't do anything.. just that I need more time than others to make it perfect. See! I'm not good at everything like wad some ppl tot. Chef Dean (my chef instructor for service) is also very strict..got scolded by him a few times due to table setting. But he is actually a very nice, funny and cheerful persn.. just that he expects alot from his students. I'm actually fine with it coz only that I can improve.

I felt a little happier today becoz Chef Dean said my fine dining service was excellent (not perfect.. but it's hard to get compliments from him you know..) I felt a sense of accomplishment.. is better than getting a A grade in Uni.. it's smthing I never felt for a very long time.. Maybe I never hear any verbal praises from anyone for a long time, and it feels good receiving one today.

Tomorrow it's another round of table service and I hope I dun repeat the mistakes I made today To reward myself, I'll probably have laksa for dinner later.. heheh :)

No matter how tired I am.. I still wanna blog about my experience at-sunrice!

Well, I only slept for 2 hours before I went for school. It's a mixture of being excited and too hungry! Yes, becoz I didn't eat my supper the night before and I was quite hungry :( Then again, I wasn't pissed with myself. Instead I took my time to bathe, cooked breakfast and fed Hash. The train was kinda slow.. took 35 min to Doby Ghaut.. I find that it was kinda slow eh.. I tot it woud take like 25-30 min? Okay I know it's only 5 mins.. but I'm anal about such stuff can!

So I was walking to fort canning park and happily enjoying the green :) Upon reaching, I was given 2 heavy magazines, log book, my schedule for the next 3 mths and other stuff.. Sigh.. heavy bag..

Then, we were greeted by numerous chefs and had orientation since 8am-3pm, with an hour lunch break in between. The orientation is nothing much, except different ppl coming in and gave us an introduction to their departments, each of them having their own ppt presentation. I felt very tired sitting down.. and the chair wasn't comfortable too.

Lunch was prepared by some of the chefs in the academy. I know! U must be thinking I'm so lucky right.. hahaha.. at least not eating rubbish food from some canteen or wad. The food was fine, not my style, but the chicken wings were really nicely marinated!

My day ended with only 35 min of short lecture on food safety.. need to submit an assignment this Thursday and my written examination is on this Friday already! And I've checked my schedule.. I have 2 written examinations next week la! =.=

I was thinking if I should skipped my convo and attend the wine service lesson on that day.. becoz for the following week, there will be a practical exam already.. On my convo day.. the whole day was dedicated to wine service and I think it should be very intensive.. I feel bad about skipping.. BUT! I only graduate from NTU once! I mean.. I finally can wear my grad gown.. how can I not go??????? (I did not wear any grad gown before!! Not even in Pre-school! Sad childhood life.. and I still hate that primary school for it.) and I know my parents are gonna be proud of me.. and I know they have been waiting for me to get this cert...

So in the end, I decided to approach the chef in charge, and see wad he says..

I've got my first 2 days of class schedule. Thought I can start my classes soon.. but it's almost full 2 days of orientation. Not that I dislike orientation.. but I really hope to start my lessons soon.... I wonder if I'll doze off during the lecture after orientation.. such things (orientation) always make me feel drained out. Oh well, hope I can enjoy and meet really nice people!

Day 1 (Monday, 6 July 2009) (Venue: Wine Academy)

7.45 am – 8.00 am	Distribution of Program Materials
8.00 am – 10.30 am	Orientation
9.30 am – 9.45 am	Break
9.45 am – 1.00 pm	Orientation
1.00 pm – 2.00 pm	Lunch Break
2.00 pm – 3.00 pm	Orientation
3.00 pm – 5.00 pm	Food Safety Lecture

 Day 2 (Tuesday, 7 July 2009) (Venue: Wine Academy)

8.00 am – 11.00 am	Orientation
11.00 am – 11.30 pm	Break/Photo taking
11.30 pm – 1.00 pm	Spice Garden Walk and Tour of the School
1.00 pm – 2.00 pm	Lunch Break
2.00 pm – 5.00 pm	Food Safety Lecture

This is my brief course outline which was totally taken from at-sunrice webbie:
 

to destroy urself when nobody loves you.. coz most importantly, you have to love yourself.

As saying goes, you only can love someone else if you learn to love yourself first.

Just a random thought and a slight reminder to myself :)

Yay! Going to feast on french food later! I know I'm gonna be broke.. but who can resist French food? I know I can't... hahahha.. have always been a big fan of French Food! So to prepare for the feast, I did gym today so that I can eat more :) And after that head down to Wala Wala..

I went back to my new school again yesterday.. this time trying on the shoes, chef cap, and the pants. So cool! One more week and I'm back to schooling again! Very Very excited! I've not bought stuff for my school yet but I wanna wait till next week.. so that I can feel the excitement again!

Alright, bathe, then later go do hair treatment. My hair feel like grass...

Finally, took Hash out for a walk after a long time.. I've always been procrastinating becoz it's so difficult to control my dog (Lindy and Yan Rong actually witnessed it). Well, I put on the scary choker chain and it seemed easier this time round... and maybe my weight lifting exercises gave me better strength to control my dog. He behaved today and I guess I'll try to walk him everyday if the weather permits. If he is good enough, I'll take him to Pasir Ris pet farm again. I think he likes it there :)

Went ECP cycling with the dumb and dumber gang yesterday. Cycled on and off for about 2 hours. It's quite fun except the scorching sun.. and now I got darker.. AGAIN! I think I prefer night cycling.. I still remembered the night cycling with Celeste and Lindy. Maybe one day I jio them for night cycling again. :)

2 more weeks and I'll be back to school. This time I'm pretty excitied.. I wonder how my schedule is going to be like and the kind of "homework" I'll be given :) Most imptly, the ppl I'm going to meet. A few days ago, I told my bf that it's okay I do not become a chef one day.. at least this course allows me to make friends with chefs! Hhaha.. evil me.. but I really want hope I can succeed in this field. I can see the road ahead me is tough.. but I know I'll can pull thru it!

My friend Jericho bought himself a DSLR.. so cool! And so he started to snap away.. always upload the beautiful pictures. He made me feel like getting one and my bf also asked me to get one. But I suspect I'll only play with it for like a few mths and just chuck it one side. BUT.. I really feel like taking nice pictures.. especially food.. and I think most of my pictures will revolve ard food. Hahhaa.. and I'll just salivate whenever I look at them.

I'm hungy.. and wonder if I should do gym today..  I've always said I wanted to go for massage but I keep delaying.. Haiz.. If I do today.. I'll probably book for one massage session tomorrow. Hehehe..

Now I feel so much better.. at least my hair is not touching my collar bone. Lol.. and bf said that I'm so willing to cut my hair because of the culinary course. Well, he is right.

Going Wild Rockets later.. the owner is the "lawyer turned into chef". I really admire these ppl! PEI FU! :)

Just did my weights not long ago.. added more weights to my squats and military press.. now I cannot feel the muscle sore anymore.. I guess my muscles are getting used to it.. or should I even add more weights?

Everyone ard me is becoming a gym junkie.. like exercising often.. But I still need to drag myself out of bed and do my part. :( sigh.. when can I be addicted to exercising? I want my form back..

My cravings are really hard to manage now. when I exercise, my appetite can x 2.. I wonder wad will happen if I start sch when I start learning how to cook delicious food.. I hope I still can exercise regularly then!

Got my convo gown today. Initially I was irked by the colour of my gown - crimson with white trimmings.. coz.. red is my least fav colour.. But after comparing with the rest, I find that it's one of the better looking ones.. haha.. Just that the mass com got crimson with black trimmings and I love it alot alot!

I have a whole list of activities tomorrow.. okay maybe not alot.. I'm going to take my chef jacket measurements tomorrow! Then I'll head over to shunji matsuo to cut the back of my hair a lil shorter.. Then I'll head down to SYY clinic.. The bumps on my face are still there.. quite irritating.. Then at night I am going to my cousin's baby 1 mth old party.

Then on sat, going for Yan's birthday lunch @ Wild Rockets (Can't wait coz I kinda miss eating proper food).. then probably mahjong after that.

Phew.. I should take a break from everything next week.. I will not go out or meet anyone unless it's necessary. Coz, I'm very tired.. yup.

Some ppl are just blessed with good looks and good body.. Well.. when ppl say looks doesn't matter...I say s***w them. I think it matters in this society.

Yes, personality is important BUT.. LOOKS STILL DO MATTER!

If I have lots of money.. I dun mind going for plastic surgery.. hahahha..

SO, who's willing to sponsor me?

Superficial me. How can I ever slim down again!!!! Arghz!

Oh, did I tell u that I dun really like good memories? Because.. I simply hate the nostalgic feeling..

Arghz! PMS.

Was talking about our honeymoon trip with darling.. then .. I mentioned that I miss Taipei alot.. Then *tink*.. yes, I proposed to make Taiwan as our honeymoon trip. Abit funny.. coz it was supposed to be Europe.. somewhere romantic..

Then I thought.. I rather go somewhere where darling and I will definitely enjoy.. Furthermore, it'll be romantic too coz Taipei was our first trip overseas together :) But this time, rather than just Taipei.. we'll probably tour ard Taiwan. Not so costly also.. and I rather save for Europe when I'm really have enough savings to fully enjoy the trip.

Hehe.. so fun.. tomorrow going for Jericho's birthday dinner then off to DF to celebrate Yan Rong's birthday. :)

Happy Birthday dear Yan Rong.. and Happy Advanced Birthday to Jericho too :)

Oh yah, cut my hair short.. lol.. no regrets and didn't feel any pain.. quite glad about it.. hopefully I can manage my hair easier.

And oh, probably seeing my dermatologist next fri.. skin having breakout.. hopefully I'll be fine soon :(

Okay.. about my fitness goals.. oh well.. started excising like today? Hahah. meeting my uni friends soon and I feel kinda tired. So long never exercise.. so abit not used to it. Felt proud with myself today, did weights and swimming. I twisted my knee a few weeks ago and it's not recovered.. a little painful when I did my weights.. but according to doc.. he said it's okay.. as long it's not jumping, running or pivoting (or wadever u call it).

So I'm gonna do this in a right way.. I'm not going to lose pounds, but hopefully gain them.. I hope to gain up to 55kg~ muscle weight that is.. Since I can't do HIIT (the burpees way).. I shall swim.. swim fast until my heart beats really fast.. I wanna lose fats.. I wanna gain muscles.. and no.. I will not diet the unhealthy way (like starving?).. but I'll watch wad I eat.

Although running like mad or starving can achieve the fastest results.. but I wanna take it slow, and the healthy way.. and the best way..

I think I'll feel happier this way :)

I am really glad to meet up with my bitches agan! I mean finally.. all of us turned up. I really want to do this again!